I went home Friday, and although I wasn’t able to share all the details of that until today, I began writing this post Sunday and then all hell broke loose during the week.. So I’m sorry for my lateness. But here is a mashup of my week since Friday.
–Friday, April 24–
I never thought I would be so happy to be home. There is nothing like sleeping in your own bed, around the people you love and being able to be free to roam and do as you will because, well, it is yours.
I literally thought the day would never arrive.
Spending a month in the hospital this time was much more difficult than the last (when Bex was born and I got my first round of chemo). Then, Bex and I were both in the hospital and I could focus on seeing him and spending time with him (when they’d allow me to when I wasn’t sick). But it was a different experience.
This time, I loathed the hospital. I didn’t want hospital food. I was tired of how the hospital soap smelled that I had to wash my hands with 28334738 times a day. I was tired of looking out of the same window wishing I could just go outside and breathe “real” air. I was tired of the IV pump beeping every 20 minutes or whenever one of my lines kinked and needed fixing. I hated having to ask someone to let me off bed alarm so I could go to the bathroom because I was considered a “fall risk.” I don’t know if I even told you guys about that night…
My days were long, my weeks were longer and then it literally seemed in possible for me to come out on the other side. I thought I was going to go bat shit cray cray.
But here I am, back at home, with all my boys. And I’m so happy to be home.
When Klay and I pulled up to the house there was a waiting party with balloons, a “Welcome Home” sign and a beautiful newly upgraded flower bed, thanks to my wonderful neighbors who do so much for us.
At 1 am Tuesday morning, I started having severe abdominal pain. The pain woke me up and hit me out of no where.
I thought was having another gas attack like I dd before, but this time it felt slightly different. My tummy (up by my breast bones and around my ribs down on the right side of my stomach) were extremely tinder to the touch and my actual abdominal area (near my belly button and below) were softer and not as bloated as before.
I wasn’t sure what was going on. Similar pain that I though may resolve with releasing some gas, but by 7 am and NO SLEEP, I couldn’t keep it up.
We already had another doctor appointment scheduled for Tuesday afternoon, but we called and they told us to come in to find out what’s going on.
Off we went to the Dallas–again for the the third time this week since Sunday–to the hospital. Of course we hit morning traffic which added nearly 50 minutes to our already 35-40 min commute. And I was in so much pain I couldn’t think.
I had vomited twice at the house already and everything I’d eaten the night before between 4-6 had come up and it was not digested at all. I had some peanut butter and a banana, which is high in fat, so they said that could have kickstarted this whole thing, though it was waiting to happen.
Apparently gallstones, kidney stones, etc are hereditary and happen often to women post-pregnancy. So on top of everything else I have going on, I’ve just added another few stones on my journey to recovery.
I ended up having to stay overnight Tuesday so they could to a CT scan and ultrasound in the AM and then also to keep my pain a minimum.
I did get some heavy, much-needed sleep finally. I slept hard.
It might have been the drugs.
It might have been the fact I’d been awake FOREVER.
It might have been that I’d seen my kids this past weekend.
It might have been I was rejuvenated from my stay at home (though it was brief).
But whatever it was, I slept hard. I was out.
I was so happy to see my nurses though when I came back up to the floor!
–Wednesday, April 29–
After completing a CT scan, my doctor wanted to do an ultrasound as well. So yesterday was quite busy for me. I had to run around and do all of these tests.
The pain had become tolerable but it was still there, so I was OK with that for the time being.
After my ultrasound the doctors said my gallbladder was really inflamed and hazy looking and there were gallstones in there, plus a few in each of my kidneys.
As soon as my ultrasound was finished, they brought me back upstairs. Klay had school so he had to leave, but then the “surgeon” came in and told me, we needed to remove it today ASAP.
So ON TOP OF THE BIG C, I have to have a surgery to remove my damn gallbladder? What are the effin’ chances?
Klay was running to CVS for me to grab a few feminine products I’ve needed (because, oh yeah, I’ve been bleeding for 5 or 6 weeks). #plugmeup
I have to wear pads to reduce infection-risks.
And then he had to run out to Academy to get a few fresh items of clothes since we didn’t grab any in the rush to leave the house from the hospital.
By 3:30 pm, I was being wheeled down for gallbladder-removal surgery.
Insane. I did not wake up early this morning thinking I’d be making a trip to the OR. But I knew I couldn’t suffer another gallbladder attack again.
I was under for about two hours or so.
It was a laparoscopic surgery, so there were was incisions made in my belly and three around my rib cage, so the recovery time is supposed to be better.
Of course since I’m immuno-suppressed, it may take a bit longer for me to heal. And they actually said post-operation that is why mine got so bad so quickly. Normally it takes a few days for someone to experience that much pain and for their gallbladder to look the way mine did, and it only took mine 8-16 hours.
When I woke, I was in pretty bad pain. I feel like someone had stabbed me and it was burning. I didn’t think I’d be in the much pain post-operation, but I was.
I was that annoying person who wakes up groggy and confused and is saying “give me pain med. I’m hurting, I’m hurting.”
Yep that was me–the whiner.
It was past 7 pm, by the time I woke up.
Once the doctor came out to talk to Klay in the waiting room, (and they wouldn’t let him back in the OR recovery area), Klay came up to wash our clothes he had purchased and the nice clothes I came up here with, since I was now sporting an epic blue gown with a gorgeously planned out square design on it. #dontbejealous #makeitwork
–Thursday, April 30–
So the surgeon who performed the procedure came in this morning to tell me that my gallbladder was pretty “ugly” and inflamed. I had a few gallstones that were in the canal trying to make their way down to my liver but they got there just in time, but that would have made things incredibly worse. He did biopsy my liver because he said it looked a little nasty too, but my oncologist said that’s to be expected with such high doses of chemo I’m
It was definitely the right decision to remove the gallbladder.
Sucky thing is: NO high fatty foods for two-three weeks. #aintthatsomebull
Dammit dude, I’m already having a tough time with what to eat at home, now this too? Shit. I’m screwed. But I am losing weight though, just not the way I would want to do it.
I’m supposed to be on clear liquids the rest of the day. I haven’t eaten since Monday around 6 pm. #bitchesbestarvingaroundhere
Honestly though, I haven’t wanted to eat. My appetite is not the best right now anyway. But for real though, a bean burrito sounds amaze balls. Just saying’.
I am missing home and my boys a lot. I just want to be with them. And I know this is really confusing for Brody. They are saying that I should be able to go home tomorrow. They just want to make sure that I’m doing OK for a full day prior to discharge. And I get that.
I got a bigger room this time. Go figure. In here a few days and get a bigger room, in here for over a month, get a smaller, more cramped room and bathroom. Oh, hospital logic… is there any?
I am getting up and moving around on my own, which is good.
Mostly, I’m just sore and tired.
I figured you guys needed a hefty update! So much has happened since I last wrote. I’ll try to be more prompt this week. Got some more news (good news) to share soon!
OH! My friend Jaycie is hosting a Younique (a beauty product line) in my honor. She is donating all of her commission to me. If you think you’re interested in some of their amazing products (I love their 3D Fiber Lash Mascara), visit her page on Facebook here and her Younique product page here.
You can also watch a video of my review of the 3D mascara (which I did pre-cancer diagnosis and pre-Bex pregnancy) here. Video at the bottom of post.